Defeated

My first week of student teaching is over...which also means the first week of this quarter is over as well. I am overwhelmed. I was telling Angela last night that I feel defeated. Yesterday was a pretty bad day...just seemed like anything that could go wrong, went wrong. Needless to say I am without my car for who knows how long because I couldnt get the stinkin key in the ignition at all. Feeling defeated is a rotten way to end this week, but I am seriously hoping this weekend brings some rest and rejuvination my direction. Mostly because I want to give the people around me all that I have to give. I want to be enthusiastic when I am teaching. I want to show love and grace to the people that I live with. I want to show appreciation to my professors. I want to show people that I care about them, and I dont really feel like I can do this if I am feeling defeated.

A few things I have learned about teaching

When I was little I used to always want to go into the teachers lounge because I thought they were super cool and now that I am supposed to go into the lounge everyday I dread it. I just wish the kids didnt have a break from class, so that I didnt even have to go into the office.

The other thing about teaching is that you can't go to the bathroom whenever you want. My first two days, I was seriously running to the bathroom on recess because I felt like I was going to pee my pants. I cant just leave the classroom and use the restroom like I do at work or during class.

New to this

This is the story of a girl, who loves people and loves living....shes been thinking about sharing her thoughts on a blog for awhile now....so here they are.